Mid January

Well I thought I posted this in mid January. Now I see I didn't. I think I remember reserving it because I felt it contained negativity and I don't like to post negativity. But sometimes life just.....is what it is. I'm gonna go on and post it. And then start a new one for this week.

The thing I like most about writing is that it keeps me thinking. It keeps my mind on task. It is therapeutic. My life has not been well without it.

I've decided that once I fulfill all my current obligations I am going to take a "sabbatical", if you will, from music and theatre. Beginning February 23 and lasting til April 5 I am reclaiming my personal time. Except for a few small things required of me for my job and a few Slaphappy shows which pay money, I will be home every night and I'm gonna do somethings with my boys and I'm going to write in the blog and do some things in my house. I'm going to do whatever I have to to get me and Tanner a car, even if I have to get a part time job. They say food addictions are the most difficult to overcome because you can not just never eat again lol. You have to eat to survive you just have to learn to control it lol. For me, I think the music/theatre overkill is gonna be the same. I can't stop it completely because I have to do it for my job everyday. I just have to learn to turn down some of these exciting "OMG I gotta do THAT one!!!" Opportunities that always come my way lol.

I've always hated saying my mother was right. And I've hated even MORE to say my husband was right. But they've both told me throughout history that "too much of a good thing can be bad". And it can because it can cause burnout and the neglect of ones self and responsibilities. And the more you do, the more you're able to ignore how badly you're neglecting the real world. Getting wrapped up in a really good creative frenzy is the best escape from reality, better than any drug could provide. The arts are better than drugs for that matter, but can still be just as life ruining.